Monday, April 18, 2005

lots of energy today

Boy, what a morning I had...woeking on trying to install a new program that took up most of an hour and very frustrating till I got help from my brother -in-law. he even changed a few lightbulbs for me...what a guy! Almost makes me want to....live with one now...NOT!
Now I've got to run....maybe I'll finish this blog later....lots of energy today.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

am not sure yet how this works??? Posted by Hello

continued

Old ideas are fading and I don't know what or where I went last night in dreamtime, but something has shifted. sometimes all you have to do is nothing, just be with the uncomfortable feelings and let it sit there with you instead of against you, resisting it.
Yesterday I felt bruised and beaten. Today I feel refreshed and new. :>)

Tis now time for me to sleep, yet i resist it...again...hurt and again beaten except now...I've resolved to not speaking to him. I am angry for his being deceitful...and at myself for believing that his story was the truth...I forgave him, yet I cannot seem to let go...still clinging to the idea that he might change his mind....boy, what a dreamer I am.