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An interesting life...ha!

Not sure what this day entails as I have made no plans, goals, etc. Feeling listless again. At least I have options....lol. May decide to do some cleaning in this place I live at...yup....can't stand the leaf blowers across the street, so I guess I'll be vacuuming my place and make some noise too. Finished up in the bathroom and now will work on getting my bed made and eat some brunch. Such an interesting life, ha!

lotsa hoopla

This is the day after the storm, now...has been a lot of hoopla about this...it's why I don't watch the news too much. All we [Maine] got was a lot of rain and wind causing power outages all over the state. My friend D. and a few others lost power. Will try to give him a call later to see if it's back on again. The tree in my neighbors yard dropped a lot of branches onto the driveway, so I went out yesterday to pick some of them up (to clear the way for the lady upstairs who usually comes home after dark). It was interesting to see how people got so antsy about the storm.
Later this week possibly even tonight, I will call my friend who live in North Carolina to see how she made out in it. I bet her pets were a handful.
Today the landlady and her husband came over and picked up the rest of the branches with Joe who maintains the property. It was nice of them to come over so soon [I think the tenant upstairs must have about it and so they came over to check]. I decided to also sweep up the garage of debris left from it and so many other things like salt/sand, and leaves. It looks a bit cleaner now. I am grateful it passed us by without too much damage. And so it is.

My new corn doll and a new outlook, maybe

Not sure about doing this yet...especially now at this point in my life.

It seems the challenges/opportunities are forever happening except now I am healing them quicker than before...amen to that. This week has been up and down sorta and I am having an inside war with my self vs. my Self.

Hard to explain exactly what I mean here, but you know being a Gemini is a perpetual conflict and now that Mercury's retrograding again, woah! So I am taking my time sifting through the whirlwinds in my mind and trying not to go to the edge. Getting a new perspective on living with this...just be. So I am taking this day to do this by breathing deeply, listening to my heart's wisdom. And so it is.

lots of energy today

Boy, what a morning I had...woeking on trying to install a new program that took up most of an hour and very frustrating till I got help from my brother -in-law. he even changed a few lightbulbs for me...what a guy! Almost makes me want to....live with one now...NOT!
Now I've got to run....maybe I'll finish this blog later....lots of energy today.

am not sure yet how this works??? 

continued

Old ideas are fading and I don't know what or where I went last night in dreamtime, but something has shifted. sometimes all you have to do is nothing, just be with the uncomfortable feelings and let it sit there with you instead of against you, resisting it.
Yesterday I felt bruised and beaten. Today I feel refreshed and new. :>)

Tis now time for me to sleep, yet i resist it...again...hurt and again beaten except now...I've resolved to not speaking to him. I am angry for his being deceitful...and at myself for believing that his story was the truth...I forgave him, yet I cannot seem to let go...still clinging to the idea that he might change his mind....boy, what a dreamer I am.